My daily life

2/2/05 Today, Tuesday, I went to Santa Maria to the court room that Michael Jackson is on trial. Nobody was there today unlike yesterday. Found out that all Jury selection was done yesterday and it resumes on Monday! Drove to Los olives and on the way stopped at los Alamos where restaurants have a place for horses to be parked being an old town. Then I went to st mike’s Episcopal church to apply for a job and suggest being a speaker as a Muslim trying to learn Jesus teaching. Then went to Michael’s ranch and people from spain,Mexico,Britain, France were there and from Canada. Also got a paper being published in Holland and a film maker from England were there. I left a note there for him to let me visit his ranch. Then left for Cachuma lake and found it 11 miles down the road. Was beautiful, found out that can get a fishing license for 33 for a year. I got that and boats were 90 for half a day or15 for 2hrs tour. I saw gharghavol,heroin and beautiful birds. On the way back I saw bunch of deer and ghasals drinking water off of 246/153 . Then on the way back stopped at casino played slot machines for 2 dollars, won 11 AND LOST IT AGAIN! I DECIDED TO START A DAILY LOG AS OF TODAY AND TURN IT INTO A BOOK LATER. MAY EMAIL IT TO BABAK SINCE I WANT TO AND TO SHAHRAM WHO IS THE ONLY ONE WHO IS ASKING ME DAILY WHAT I DID. I AM GOING TO FINISH AN APPLICATION FOR A COMPUTER INSTRUCTOR IN ALLAN HANCOCK COLLEGE.
For those of you who read these lines and know me it makes a difference but the rest who reads these on internet or as a book it will take a while to know me and understand where I come from. I was thinking to myself why on earth I am doing what I am doing now, I came to the conclusion that God is giving me some time off so that I can sort out my life, digest whatever happened to me till now and come to a conclusion, closure or absorb the experience and then go on.
I am now parked in front of the ocean in an angle so that I can see the sunset ,no ABSORB the sunset. I am at surf station in California,in city of Lompoc. How I got here from Tehran,Iran and then Genevea Switzerland is a story unfolding throughout these daily log. I talk about me as I see fit. Today I want to talk about the sunset.
When I first read the book ”Pilgrim at Tinker Creek” by Annie Dillard I told myself I want to see the sunset the way she did. Yesterday I stayed next to the ocean in an area 5 minutes from here for 2.5 hours and taped the sunset. I wanted to get to purple colors in the end and also the part that all colors are sucked in to the ocean with the sun itself. I taped it all with the birds flying ,colors changing and waves moving. I felt good and free . After all I remembered 2 years ago when I asked him(the l ex) to pause cause I wanted to see the sunset either in Solomons Island, Maryland or in Nags Head, North Carolina And he refused, now God gave me the whole ocean and its surroundings to take my time and have an Annie Dillard moment . I wish you were all here to enjoy it with me. I guess the reason I HAVEN’T LAND a full time job yet is because I NEED TO GO THRU THESE EXPERIENCES PER GOD’S WILL. I ABIDE. Before I come here I did type the letter to college explaining my reasons for moving from Virginia to California and my interest in teaching and learning. This I had to add cause if my brother is reading these lines he is grouching about the time wasted to do other things instead of looking for a job. By the way as I typed these lines the sun got closer to the horizon and less light is available ,so I guess I quit now till they invent a laptop that has flash lights attached to it! J No matter what changes in life, sunrise and sunset stay the same. I watched it way after the sunset was finished. Everyday a different sky is in front of me and clouds play a vital role in showing me all the colors in a sunset reminding me of blue mountain range in Virginia during the fall with all the colors that one could imagine. Thanks for giving me the power to see.